Much Harder and BIG Question

His dad said he was excited for us to come and kept looking through the peep hole in the door.

We arrived. He clung to his dad and refused eye contact.

"Don't worry...we are all staying here together."

"No!" He replied.

He was visibly distressed and I didn't want that. He didn't need that.

I kneeled down and asked him, "Do you want us to leave?"

He finally relaxed and made eye contact. "Yes." he said confidently.

"Ok, sweetheart. Well, can you give me a hug goodbye?"

He immediately got up and gave me a hug goodbye. Oh, how that hurt. He gave Lee high fives and did the same cheerfully with the boys.

As we left I stared at him and he stared at me. I told him I loved him.

What is going on in that little mind of his? I was wondering.

The big boys were devastated. Absolutely devastated. They felt rejected and I don't blame them - I did too!

I tried to explain it to myself as much as to them.

"Little D is probably very upset that we left him and wants to be in control of when we leave. This might be his way of trying to be in control of who leaves him."

I explained that it wasn't really the healthiest of signs, but that we couldn't control how he was reacting to everything.

It was still hard for them. Especially David.

We returned home, ate dinner, and then headed out to our Bible Study class. On our way, I made a phone call to check in on someone.

This is where the BIG question comes in. I don't want to share a ton because I don't think it is appropriate to do so yet on this blog. Let me see if I can share in a general way.

Hmmm. Let's just say that we were asked to consider whether or not we would be willing to take custody of one of our son's siblings.

It is much more complicated and obviously a decision that is not to be taken lightly. It is highly unlikely that we will be needed and we are praying that that is the case. Even so, it certainly leaves my mind reeling.

Anyway, there are many precious hearts that we are praying for tonight. Thank you to those who are joining us in those prayers. We are confident that God answers.