Transition Day 5 (Part 2)

We dropped the little guy off this afternoon and he was thrilled to be back to see his dad. Lee and I took the boys out for an early dinner and then went grocery shopping together.

It was strange. Don't get me wrong...it was nice to actually be able to do something on the whim and to have free hands the whole time, but it was just strange not having him with us.

By the time we were heading home to bring the groceries back, Anthony was missing the little guy and wanted to go pick him up. That was a good sign:).

Both boys were distracted by the invitation to play in the snow with the neighborhood girls. They had a blast and eventually we called them inside to shower and get ready to pick up Little D.

The little guy was SO exhausted. He was mad too. He didn't want to look at any of us. When the boys said they missed him and asked if he missed them, he said, "No!" Yikes.

He did allow me to give him a hug and pick him up, but that was about it.

David started crying. Later in the night he shared that he just felt really sad about how mean the little guy was to him. It is true too, Little D. can be really mean to the big boys and they take it like champs. Especially David. He loves no matter what and is such an example to me. Tonight was too much for him, though, and he felt rejected. We commended him for how he loves and talked about WHY Little D. is acting this way.

Little D. fell right to sleep as soon as I put him in bed. Here is to praying that he actually sleeps through the night!

How I feel: Thankful that God continues to allow me to be emotionally available to the boys as they process this. Grateful for the blessing of being mom to my boys. Prayerful that Little D. can get the rest he needs and feel safe enough to express how HE is feeling.

How the boys feel: That was a big deal that Anthony expressed missing him. Woohoo! He says he is glad that he will still have David as his brother when Little D. leaves. David is truly grieving and is overwhelmed by sadness right now. I am praying that we can support him and walk him through this in a healthy way.

How Little D. feels: Poor kiddo is just so tired. It is hard to know how he is feeling. A little confused perhaps? Or maybe not. Rejected? We'll see....