Big Decisions

Would you think we were crazy if I told you that we are feeling led to adopt again? Not any time soon, but we feel God leading us in some direction. Maybe domestic adoption? Apparently that is a two to three year wait. That timing works for us. Maybe international adoption? That is about a year wait...

As we were considering and doing research, I thought it wise to write to social services and inquire about any rules they might have about fostering and going through an adoption agency at the same time. The response was,

"You should adopt through us! In fact, we have this little boy....we need to know in a few days if you want to be considered."

Umm...not quite the timing we had in mind. Not quite the gender I had in mind:). Despite all of the things we could think of that would lead us to say no, Lee and I did not want to be disobedient if God was in fact wanting us to trust him and adopt this little guy. So we prayed together and we felt sure that God would give us a clear answer the next morning. The next morning we woke up and....nothing. The next day....nothing. We didn't get a clear answer one way or the other so we said, 'no for now' but I just wasn't sure.

David and (A) kept praying for this little guy to have a family and they were as happy as could be about the thought of having him come live with us. I couldn't sleep the night before we had to give a final answer and so I gave the social worker a call. She kindly answered all of my questions and reassured me that they have plenty of good families wanting to adopt this little guy. The transition for him would be next month and that was what gave me complete peace about saying 'no.' There is no way that helping a one year old transition INTO our family would be a good idea the first month that (A) will begin visits to transition OUT. Nope...

What have we learned through this process?

Sometimes God lets us decide.

What else have we learned?

Our boys both have such kind and loving hearts...especially when it comes to other children who need a forever mom and dad. (A) has surprised me in this area.

Tonight at the dinner table, Lee shared good news that God has blessed our family by giving him a raise when we were certain that would not happen this year. The first thing out of (A)'s mouth was, "Maybe that boy can come live with our family." We explained that he would not be joining our family and before we could talk about him going to another family, David chirped in, "but he will be all alone!" and then (A) responded, "No he won't. God will be with him."

My heart almost burst and I was silently praising God because I am going to need that same reminder when/if (A) leaves us...."God will be with him."