Tears & Timing

It has been a while since I cried. It is interesting when those tears sneak up on you.

" For everything there is a season, and a time for every matter under heaven." Ecclesiastes 3:1

This afternoon we were able to take David to a party to see his four month old cousin. There was this little girl there....maybe 18 months or older. When Lee and I saw her dark curls and chubby little legs, we both looked at each other and said that she reminded us of Ashley. Oh, how I wish we could have seen her grow up to be that age. I watched as the little girl fell asleep in her mother's arms. Oh, how I wish I could see Ashley's sweet little sleeping face again in her mother's arms. I missed Ashley. I missed Jaqueline.

"a time to be born, and a time to die;"

I didn't cry there at the party because I was easily distracted by the sounds of laughter and the good food. The night continued and I was deciding on watching a movie with Lee or cleaning the kitchen. The movie won, but I had no idea what I was getting into. It ended with a man giving up his life to save the lives of others. That was it- I was in tears. Yes, partially due to the content of the movie, but mostly because of Jaqueline and Ashley.

"a time to weep, and a time to laugh;"

We called Jaqueline. It had been too long. She is doing alright- working at a store, living with her aunt. I just wish I could see her in person. There is so much that I want to share with her that I cannot fully express in words and so much that I want to know about her that I know she cannot say.

"a time to keep silence, and a time to speak;"

We hung up and the tears came again. It felt good to cry. It was time.