God at Work

It has been tough.  There are moments when I feel completely at peace and then other moments when I feel such deep sadness and just can't stop crying.

Despite how difficult this has been, I do see God at work.

Well, I know for sure He is working in my heart.  Without such difficult circumstances, I would not have had the opportunity to learn what it means to show complete trust in God through respecting my husband's decisions. I'm a work in progress and my desire to control is strong, but I am thankful to have had the chance to relinquish that control.

It isn't just about me, though. And it isn't just about Little D. It is about his birth family too. This is why we became foster parents in the first place.

If Little D stayed with us, I would not have experienced the emotions that allowed me to have compassion for his mom. If Little D stayed with us, she wouldn't have been able to trust me...wondering if I was just being nice to her because I had ulterior motives.

Her faith is new and she is struggling, but I've reached out to her and she has now been reaching out to me, even since he has left.

I'm grateful for the opportunity to build a relationship with her and pray that I am faithful with it.

God IS at work in all of this. I just need to get past all of my questions and give up all my worries so that I can see it:).